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phio_chan ([personal profile] aetherna) wrote2015-11-23 01:30 pm
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Of All These Friends and Lovers

I do wonder why we can't have all the good things in the world in this life. After all, we only live once. Mother Earth is so harsh! I have graduated and now doing a small job while waiting for international assignment, but the friendship and love department are rather in chaos.

Long story short, two of my best friends are having a cold war since months ago to the point where they have declared that they are no longer friends. I once tried to retrace the steps to find the real cause(s) behind this situation, but I was not very successful. (1) Difference in ideology of 'common' things. A acts like this, A thinks that is okay but B is offended. Vice versa. Instead of confronting each other, they keep it bottled inside like most other girls do. Therefore with one trigger, everything just exploded and could not be saved anymore. (2) Problems with bf. There seems to be discomfort with how the bf of these girls are behaving and that affects the girls. I understand we can't live in peace forever every second, but when you declare yourself as "best friends", I thought we could work out things like this. Turns out we can't. My last and only hope is that they directly say to each other, and to me, as someone who is still friendly with A and B separately, that we can no longer be friends like before. That we should move on. I need this closure so bad. Yet I can't exactly push them around to 'say it right here right now' because they are still working together for the next few months. Said it would be too awkward if we talk now. My wound is getting cold, leaving scar. I don't want to look back to this day and still in pain for not putting a proper end to this broken vase.

Love department is actually not that gloomy. I think my bf has been generally supportive in all these times. I guess I'm still learning to expect less and do more, not to hope too much so I won't be hurt or too disappointed. Yet sometimes I can't help it. It's not like I never talked it out with him, though; we did and we had improvements so I should be thankful.

"In my life, I love you more."
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[personal profile] kyoki 2017-02-06 04:09 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm so sorry this reply is so, so late. I've been going through my emails lately and noticed I had some replies on here.

I'm guessing that situation is all taken care of. I hope it all went well!
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[personal profile] kyoki 2017-02-15 04:58 pm (UTC)(link)
Ahaha, I'm always debating deleting mine since I don't really post anymore either. But then I forget about it for a few months. Lol! Yep, I have a tumblr, though I'm not on it very much. I'm rather a noob when it comes to that site. But here is my link: http://meow-mers.tumblr.com/

That is great that they were able to be friends again. They really are strange. Even being a girl myself I don't understand them half of the time. LOL!

I've been pretty good. Got a new job almost a year ago and it's been so awesome! Finally got married after being together for eight years. And we're recently decided to start looking for a bigger place to move. So I've been packing things here and there. :D How are you?
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[personal profile] kyoki 2017-03-13 03:30 pm (UTC)(link)
Ahaha, that is fine. I really enjoy Korean dramas. I haven't watched any in a while though. My tumblr is mainly filled of Gintama and cats. LOL!

Right? So crazy!

Me too! Job searching is one of the worse things ever! I don't mind filling out the applications, but the interviews always make me nervous since I'm always afraid I'll say something stupid and they won't want to hire me. We haven't yet, but we have started looking at places. There was one we really liked, but we may have to hold off after we pay our taxes. But the move will happen soon! Whee! :D
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[personal profile] kyoki 2017-04-25 03:06 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh gosh, I think the last one I watched was Secret Garden.

Ah, that is always nice when it goes easier than you expect it to. Interviews always stress me out. >.<

Yea, I'm feeling a bit down right now too. We're still in the packing process. But this has been our home for the last six and a half years. But our new place is going to be a lot bigger so that is something to look forward too. :D I'm sure it'll be a good one! :D