Some things are just hard to let out.

[aetherna]

Well, as the title says.

I don't know why specifically. Today I feel so full inside but empty as well. Confusing, right? I'm sorry. It is just hard to describe what I have inside and they are also hard to let out. I ended up crying. >_>

I think it is most probably related to everything and all stress I have been keeping to myself lately... First source obviously is university life. Problems in terms of exams and scores and assignments, non-academic activities which just hurt my head with all the works and deadlines, and lack of sleep. Another source would be family-related, I suppose. Things just don't go well as it used to, and when I ignored it I ended up piling it up inside. Thus, the explosion.

Just tired, that is all, really.

It is at this kind of time that I started to feel that perhaps I just took the wrong step, that I shouldn't have done this since the beginning, and so on. Such a bad mind.

Tired. Means I need sleep. See you tomorrow then, hopefully with a better mood.

Comments

[kyoki]

Awww, I'm sorry that you have so much stress. I hope everything goes well and your s stress goes away. I tend to bottle everything up too. :/ Sometimes I don't mean to, but most times I do. It's just a habit. Back in high school I had a friend who would write down everything that was bugging her to help relieve the stress and tension, and then burn it up so no one would be able to read it. Maybe something like that could help in case you don't want to ran to someone about it. :3

I hope you'll be able to get plenty of rest. ^.^

[aetherna]

Thanks so much, Kyoki-chan~

Yeah, I tried to talk things through but most of the times I'm just too tired to talk about it so it ended up bottled up inside. That is a very interesting method, but again I'm lazy to write things then burn it, so... XD But it is a great idea!

And yes, my class starts rather late tomorrow so I'll be able to get some sleep. Yay! :D

[kyoki]

Teehee, your welcome. :D

Haha, yea, I'm the same way. My hand gets too tired when I write things by hand. Though I've been trying to build up my tolerance again. Though... I don't mind the burning part since I like burning things, well, mostly candles since they are safe. Lol! :P

Yay! That is awesome!

[aetherna]

Yeah, well, writing journals like here online helps a bit, although I can't burn them, LOL~

[kyoki]

LOL! True. I just imagine someone trying to burn a post online. That would be quite interesting. They would have to burn down the whole internet or something :P