rainchild

It has been such a long time since made a post here. Around three months, eh? Very cool.

I have been busy with university. That, and my motivation in keep writing for this journal kind of died out. Not sure if I'll ever get to that mood again but we'll see. As for now I have just managed to survive through two weeks of hell, and soon in few more days it will return I guess. Such is life. So many complications and troubles, trying to sort things out one by one, but it doesn't always work, gosh. I'll just do my best.

See you around soon.

June is already here. In fact, we have already reached the second of June of 2012. The year of end of the world. :P Bottom line is, time flies, right? It feels as if we have just celebrated New Year few days ago, now we are already halfway through this year. So scary.

So many things have happened lately. Quite a lot of stress from school, with so many things to read and work on. Especially now that rather silent weeks have passed and we once again enter the weeks of battle with exams. My online activity thus have been reduced quite a bit, and it will decrease even more in upcoming weeks, until around three weeks from now when current class end and new one starts. Mom and my sister returned to hometown few days ago, leaving me alone here. And I can only go home on late August. Such a long way to go.

I suppose I can say I am kind of stressed with another thing as well.

I just don't understand why. I suppose if we talk directly, I will finally find out... Yet I feel there is no urge to do so since the other party totally shows no interest at all in talking with me about anything. That is rather discouraging, hence I decided to back off slowly and eventually cut off the connection. Not that I am angry or anything... I just don't understand why, and I react to what I see in front of me. Who wants to live in discomfort anyway, right? If I am not needed, if it makes me feel discomfort, I may as well stand back and live my life alone. No offense at all.

Perhaps it sounds like I am disappointed? I guess so. Deep inside since we have been together for a while, we can sort things out properly, but turns out I was wrong. I had faith... and in one way or another I was 'betrayed'. Sometimes I think if I have done something wrong, something I am unaware of.

So when I was told that we were going to talk... I'm just curious now.

Enough with the gloomy post.

The coming of June also marks something else in my life, actually, something more positive and lovely. It marks six month of something special, which I didn't think would last this long actually. It started of as something fun, and eventually we enjoyed it. I can't wait to see where we will go to after this. <3

Staying positive is so hard to do, but I will do my best!


P.S.: I hope you like the secrecy! :DD

As the title said. That is the reason for my lack of post for almost a month. :P

Not really, I guess...?

Last time I posted an entry here, it was after the first exam of last module, if I remember correctly. After that I went into crazy mode of studying. I tried to use my time as effective and efficient as possible, I tried to keep myself sane through all the crazy schedules... It ended up well, the exams week finished and I didn't have to redo anything. Still I had an exam to re-take last week, and I went back to studying. Not that I didn't have time at all to write, but I was getting lazy online, only playing games and downloading or watching K-drama, and chatting. Nothing much. Until today, which marks the beginning of a new class, I think it is a good time to restart everything again.

After taking a break and breathe free for around a week -- or few days cut by studying from that re-take exam -- I feel slightly more refreshed to start anew. Today's lectures while not as bad as I thought were not delivered well by the teachers that they got slightly boring. It's still the first day anyway so I won't let myself down.

Back to working on my writing, I guess. So many to write, deadline is Wednesday, and I'm full until late afternoon tomorrow. How sweet.