aetherna: (chibi1)
This weekend is rather gloomy. I didn't return to grandma's place because I wanted to enjoy sleeping at boarding house to the best, but I spent Saturday morning on an activity for my organization and the Sunday morning for church. And wi-fi here died, so I had to resort to using modem. This is the third day the wi-fi died, and with it all the drama and anime series I was supposed to catch up with this weekend. :|

I'm trying not to be too dependent on technology, but still, lol. This topic was also mentioned at the retreat last time. Humans have been too dependent for their lives and become slaves to technology. In a sense it is true, but how helpful and how basic these things have become in our lives is just that undeniable. At least I can still do my academic tasks well with this modem. But this slow speed is killing me. T_T

Oh, well, I suppose this is a sign for me to study since exam is coming closer. So I'll study now and get ready for big payment soon after!
aetherna: (artistique1)
I always like it when rain poured down hard when I'm at home. Makes you feel alone but refreshed.

My Japanese is stalled. After finishing the first book a while ago, I haven't had the chance to continue the second book. Well, I think I did have, but I spent it to watch anime or drama and read manga. The rest was taken by assignments and sleeping. I really need to get some time out, especially if I want to be ready to go to Japan whenever there is a chance to! <3

And recently I'm back to the scanlation world. Guess I'm a bit bored so I joined one small group with relaxed deadline, and now attempting to revive my old, dead scanlation group as well. Things are moving very slowly but as long as there's some work going on behind, I'm happy. Let's see how far we can go to.

Other than that I'm waiting for results of previous exams and some kind of screening exam for a group competition. I have no high hope but we'll see, haha~

Now let's think about how to survive tomorrow's exam. \o/
aetherna: (artistique3)
I survived the world's doomsday. God loves me! /sarcasm

Anyway, been more than a month since my last post here. Very sporadic, eh? Here I was, promising to try hard to write regularly, but eventually it fell behind. Life's been busy, and the time I had used to stay online were channeled to games or anime or sleeping. Sounded like.. frustrated? Perhaps, a bit.

This year's Christmas and New Year is the first I celebrate without my core family. I'm stuck here because my semester is yet to end, but parents and sister are already at hometown. Around a week more I'll be free, but there's still a lot to go through to reach that point. Exams, mainly. On January 2nd, 2013. Look at the date, LOOK AT IT.

Honestly saying I wanted to celebrate New Year at a friend's house. But thanks to this annoying responsibility of having to go and see relatives on those days, I'll return to grandma's place soon enough. And studying there. And make a fool of myself for not being able to talk and have fun like others have. Because I barely talk to them, or maybe don't really know all these relatives that well.

I guess I'm just tired with life.

I'll probably write a bit more since I'm so bored and lazy. But two exams are around the corner as well, so...

P.S.: Belated Merry Christmas 2012!
aetherna: (artistique2)
Music. Food. Family. Friends. And honorable mention to my busy academic and non-academic schedules and assignments. Really, even though they all could be annoying at times, they make me into who I am today.

Today I kind of wanted to write something again, after a long absence. Tomorrow is exam. What, reliving stress, you say? Probably. :P

Nothing much up with my life but the usual routine. Works and assignments are all around the air, but I'm fighting to give some time to go to MangaHelpers, to listen and hunt music, to watch anime, to read manga I've been following, to play, and last but not least to sleep. Sometimes the balance is off, but such is life.

This weekend, November 3rd-4th 2012, Lee Seung Gi -- one of my favorite Korean actors -- came for a fan meeting in Indonesia. I couldn't express how much I wish I could go but the ticket was rather expensive and exam was coming. I must be satisfied with photos and news only. It seemed so cool. Seung Gi is known as a warm, open, and friendly celebrity, loving his fans a lot. Come again to Indonesia, Seung Gi-oppa. Or I'll visit Korea and see you one day. <3

My love with anime is blossoming as usual. I have many series to check, but at this moment decided to stick with those currently airing ones only. Now downloading and watching Kara no Kyoukai when I can, though. It seems to be quite an interesting series, although the first episode was rather... heavy.

I'll try to remember to write some reviews of anime and drama I watched recently, like I did with Mirai Nikki and King2Hearts previously. It was rather fun.

For now, off I go to gather my good luck for tomorrow's exam. Until then! o/
aetherna: (chibi1)
June is already here. In fact, we have already reached the second of June of 2012. The year of end of the world. :P Bottom line is, time flies, right? It feels as if we have just celebrated New Year few days ago, now we are already halfway through this year. So scary.

So many things have happened lately. Quite a lot of stress from school, with so many things to read and work on. Especially now that rather silent weeks have passed and we once again enter the weeks of battle with exams. My online activity thus have been reduced quite a bit, and it will decrease even more in upcoming weeks, until around three weeks from now when current class end and new one starts. Mom and my sister returned to hometown few days ago, leaving me alone here. And I can only go home on late August. Such a long way to go.

I suppose I can say I am kind of stressed with another thing as well.

I just don't understand why. I suppose if we talk directly, I will finally find out... Yet I feel there is no urge to do so since the other party totally shows no interest at all in talking with me about anything. That is rather discouraging, hence I decided to back off slowly and eventually cut off the connection. Not that I am angry or anything... I just don't understand why, and I react to what I see in front of me. Who wants to live in discomfort anyway, right? If I am not needed, if it makes me feel discomfort, I may as well stand back and live my life alone. No offense at all.

Perhaps it sounds like I am disappointed? I guess so. Deep inside since we have been together for a while, we can sort things out properly, but turns out I was wrong. I had faith... and in one way or another I was 'betrayed'. Sometimes I think if I have done something wrong, something I am unaware of.

So when I was told that we were going to talk... I'm just curious now.

Enough with the gloomy post.

The coming of June also marks something else in my life, actually, something more positive and lovely. It marks six month of something special, which I didn't think would last this long actually. It started of as something fun, and eventually we enjoyed it. I can't wait to see where we will go to after this. <3

Staying positive is so hard to do, but I will do my best!


P.S.: I hope you like the secrecy! :DD