aetherna | Entries tagged with happiness

Music. Food. Family. Friends. And honorable mention to my busy academic and non-academic schedules and assignments. Really, even though they all could be annoying at times, they make me into who I am today.

Today I kind of wanted to write something again, after a long absence. Tomorrow is exam. What, reliving stress, you say? Probably. :P

Nothing much up with my life but the usual routine. Works and assignments are all around the air, but I'm fighting to give some time to go to MangaHelpers, to listen and hunt music, to watch anime, to read manga I've been following, to play, and last but not least to sleep. Sometimes the balance is off, but such is life.

This weekend, November 3rd-4th 2012, Lee Seung Gi -- one of my favorite Korean actors -- came for a fan meeting in Indonesia. I couldn't express how much I wish I could go but the ticket was rather expensive and exam was coming. I must be satisfied with photos and news only. It seemed so cool. Seung Gi is known as a warm, open, and friendly celebrity, loving his fans a lot. Come again to Indonesia, Seung Gi-oppa. Or I'll visit Korea and see you one day. <3

My love with anime is blossoming as usual. I have many series to check, but at this moment decided to stick with those currently airing ones only. Now downloading and watching Kara no Kyoukai when I can, though. It seems to be quite an interesting series, although the first episode was rather... heavy.

I'll try to remember to write some reviews of anime and drama I watched recently, like I did with Mirai Nikki and King2Hearts previously. It was rather fun.

For now, off I go to gather my good luck for tomorrow's exam. Until then! o/

Heart thoughtful
Body Always here.
Soul EGOIST - Euterpe

These past two weeks I dedicated my life (by that, I mean my free time) mostly for my faculty's choir group. Well, I'm the chairman after all, but it was more because I was also responsible for the practice since we don't really have a fixed coach. So my friend and I helped the team as coaches. We had to perform twice, each in the last two Saturdays. So I scheduled practice for almost everyday during those weeks.

Things went better in first weeks than the last one. Short story is, our first performance was way, WAY, better than the last performance. Ashamed? No need to ask. Although I had kind of "given up" since I couldn't do anything anymore. It didn't change the fact that I was hurt and disappointed, more towards myself than others.

I was chosen as the chairman of this year's team. I actually had the chance to refuse, but I didn't. I thought this would be a good chance to "repent for my sins in the past"; failing our choir competitions and making our coach cry. I knew it wouldn't be easy, but man, isn't it hard.

The failure this time was my mistake, I guess, since I didn't plan it out well enough. When I accepted the job since the time frame was close to the other performance I thought it wouldn't be a problem. Lesson learned to be more careful in the future.

Performances are over, but now our big(gest) responsibility has come. New batches. What to do with them? If we can't keep them interested we'd lose people just like how we lost those one year below us. Another tough battle. Are we going to win?

Now I know for sure that it is not enough just to have music. Because not everyone in team is "satisfied" with "just music".

Heart restless
Body Far from home.
Soul LiSA - Itsuka no Tegami

June is already here. In fact, we have already reached the second of June of 2012. The year of end of the world. :P Bottom line is, time flies, right? It feels as if we have just celebrated New Year few days ago, now we are already halfway through this year. So scary.

So many things have happened lately. Quite a lot of stress from school, with so many things to read and work on. Especially now that rather silent weeks have passed and we once again enter the weeks of battle with exams. My online activity thus have been reduced quite a bit, and it will decrease even more in upcoming weeks, until around three weeks from now when current class end and new one starts. Mom and my sister returned to hometown few days ago, leaving me alone here. And I can only go home on late August. Such a long way to go.

I suppose I can say I am kind of stressed with another thing as well.

I just don't understand why. I suppose if we talk directly, I will finally find out... Yet I feel there is no urge to do so since the other party totally shows no interest at all in talking with me about anything. That is rather discouraging, hence I decided to back off slowly and eventually cut off the connection. Not that I am angry or anything... I just don't understand why, and I react to what I see in front of me. Who wants to live in discomfort anyway, right? If I am not needed, if it makes me feel discomfort, I may as well stand back and live my life alone. No offense at all.

Perhaps it sounds like I am disappointed? I guess so. Deep inside since we have been together for a while, we can sort things out properly, but turns out I was wrong. I had faith... and in one way or another I was 'betrayed'. Sometimes I think if I have done something wrong, something I am unaware of.

So when I was told that we were going to talk... I'm just curious now.

Enough with the gloomy post.

The coming of June also marks something else in my life, actually, something more positive and lovely. It marks six month of something special, which I didn't think would last this long actually. It started of as something fun, and eventually we enjoyed it. I can't wait to see where we will go to after this. <3

Staying positive is so hard to do, but I will do my best!

P.S.: I hope you like the secrecy! :DD

Heart working
Body Darkness
Soul Liszt - La Campanella

Who would think such sentence can have a strong and deep impression?

Twice I heard this sentence, each in a different way, and it touched me and made me cry.

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I suppose I can say that we may have heard this sentence so many times, in different form of words or expressions, but never really considered it as something important. Although death will sure come, that this life would come to an end, we all expect that it will still happen some time far away, in few years in the future. Still a long way to go. Or that the current life we have is already a happy one, we are completely satisfied with it or just can't be too bothered to actually do something else for a change. Or we can do it some time soon, just not now. Still a long way to go.

Happy moments, sad moments. The joy of finding someone important in your life after a windy and hurtful road, and to know that this person feels the same about you. The pain of losing a friend you have been together with for a long time, who supports you and listen to you, who gets angry at you and scolds you; he was lost protecting you until the very end. Perhaps not as extreme as those examples. Yet there surely are times when you feel so up high that it makes you feel so light or deep down that it's suffocating. All those moments, those people, those times bring us this far and turn us into who we are now.

Our lives are so fragile. In a blink of an eye everything can changed, you never know. Still we often neglect it and let it pass away just like that. I have been living like that. You may have, too.

Have you and I cherished our lives today?

Heart contemplative
Body Gate of Dreamland
Soul My breath, my heart.

Dancing with K-Pop in the middle of the night, I was reminded...

So much has happened lately. Various things and issues and problems, a lot of uncomfortable situations, as well as small happiness which made your day colorful... All thanks to what He did for us. He saved us. So the least we could do is savor what we have and share it with the others. May the blessings of Easter be with you always!

Happy Easter 2012!

A small gift for me, because it makes you feel that He is always here, and miracles exist:

"Sanctus Dominus Deus Sabaoth. Pleni sunt caeli et terra gloria tua. Benedictus qui venit in nomine Domini..."

Heart grateful
Body Land of sleep
Soul Libera - Sanctus

rainchild

to be a meaningful gesture

Entries tagged with happiness

What makes me whole?

As long as I have music. ... Is it really enough?

Second of June.

I will cherish you forever.

Happy Easter 2012!

Happy Easter 2012!