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It has been a while since I posted any update in this journal. Caught up in life, and just... too lazy. <3 But as payback, here I'll share the summary of previous months.

February 2013 ~ The big thing was me turning 20. Feeling so old, yeah. First few days of February was spent lazily at home, enjoying what was probably my last holiday for the next a year and half, or so my friends said. So I was at home with parents and sister, visiting this and that place, doing this and that, until I had to resume school. Classes were fine, got its boring moment, but I managed to got through it rather safely. Can't remember anything so special happening in February. Don't ask me of Valentine's Day, lol.

March 2013 ~ Happy Easter! March was closed with a lovely Easter celebration here, even though I was tired because of it. Preparations of events, usual university stuffs, me getting lazy, me and my addiction to drama and anime, finishing Winter's anime, and waiting patiently for the new Spring titles. Noticed how my friends were fighting, getting pissed off at some things, got into fangirl mode on for music and drama, and found peace between all those hectic moments. I'm glad March went through safely, too.

Now... Happy April's Fools day! Nothing bad happened today, thank goodness. Instead I'm preparing for exam right away, and a retreat for Catholic students at the end of this week. Busy as hell. But somehow enjoying it. With all the laziness included. And waiting patiently for Seung Gi-oppa new sageuk drama which will start airing in mid-April.

Life can't get any better.

Heart nerdy
Body Crossroad
Soul supercell - Giniro Hikousen

June is already here. In fact, we have already reached the second of June of 2012. The year of end of the world. :P Bottom line is, time flies, right? It feels as if we have just celebrated New Year few days ago, now we are already halfway through this year. So scary.

So many things have happened lately. Quite a lot of stress from school, with so many things to read and work on. Especially now that rather silent weeks have passed and we once again enter the weeks of battle with exams. My online activity thus have been reduced quite a bit, and it will decrease even more in upcoming weeks, until around three weeks from now when current class end and new one starts. Mom and my sister returned to hometown few days ago, leaving me alone here. And I can only go home on late August. Such a long way to go.

I suppose I can say I am kind of stressed with another thing as well.

I just don't understand why. I suppose if we talk directly, I will finally find out... Yet I feel there is no urge to do so since the other party totally shows no interest at all in talking with me about anything. That is rather discouraging, hence I decided to back off slowly and eventually cut off the connection. Not that I am angry or anything... I just don't understand why, and I react to what I see in front of me. Who wants to live in discomfort anyway, right? If I am not needed, if it makes me feel discomfort, I may as well stand back and live my life alone. No offense at all.

Perhaps it sounds like I am disappointed? I guess so. Deep inside since we have been together for a while, we can sort things out properly, but turns out I was wrong. I had faith... and in one way or another I was 'betrayed'. Sometimes I think if I have done something wrong, something I am unaware of.

So when I was told that we were going to talk... I'm just curious now.

Enough with the gloomy post.

The coming of June also marks something else in my life, actually, something more positive and lovely. It marks six month of something special, which I didn't think would last this long actually. It started of as something fun, and eventually we enjoyed it. I can't wait to see where we will go to after this. <3

Staying positive is so hard to do, but I will do my best!

P.S.: I hope you like the secrecy! :DD

Heart working
Body Darkness
Soul Liszt - La Campanella

This weekend is kind of mixed. We had a long break thanks to the holiday for Christ's Ascension, from Thursday down to Sunday (which is today). I was supposed to spend a happy, lovely, and laid-back free time at home with Mom and Sis, playing games, enjoying TV programs, watching dramas and anime, fangirling like a crazy one...

I am not the one who was sick, if you worried a little. :P

Late at night, actually just around an hour after midnight, early in the beginning of Saturday, we received a call that Mom's mother (so my maternal grandmother) fell ill. Heart attack, it seemed. She was unconscious and brought immediately to hospital... None of her child was around to help, it was another family. Mom rushed over to her place, which is not at this city, Friday afternoon. She would return tomorrow night. Well, that left me with a task to look after Sis, although it was taken over completely by my aunt who used to take care of her before...

Now that sounds like I was back to being 'jobless', but it was boring since I had no one to talk to. :(

Problem solved a bit when I went to visit a friend's house to play couple of hours on Saturday afternoon. And by going back to boarding house today. ... Or no. Since I have classes tomorrow. Starts early, ends late. And seems like it's going to be boring.

"Ah, stress!"

Body Near Campus(!)
Soul Akiko Shikata - Aoiro Kandzume

...that I don't even have, I heard the rain and the peace it brought to me. I always miss the rain. It always made me calm, peaceful, and... lazy.

/insert meme face here

/eats Oreo Choco&Nut Double Delight

Well, exam is tomorrow. I feel kind of like... bursting up thanks to all reading and studying I've been doing. Strange that my head seems so blocked up now that no matter how many times I read it I still feel like I can't remember them all. XD I'm good with the basic concepts I think, yet if it comes to example cases and where I need to decide on a diagnosis, I can't help but feeling confused.

I'm not sure if it's just me worrying too much. Like today, I was worried to death that the plenary (class-wide presentation after laboratory experiment or discussion) would be scary since I heard the presenter would be chosen randomly and I hadn't prepared for it at all. Yet it didn't turn so bad, I wasn't chosen, and in fact I think I learned one or two more things for exam. :P

Well, back to study more, though it was hard to. XD

Heart drunk
Body Together with rain
Soul Raindrops

I really don't know why but to me it seems as if it is rather hard to keep a plan fixed from the beginning.

Today I have a choir practice at home. I didn't check two days ago that my class tomorrow started at 8 AM based on the schedule so I told them I wanted to return to my boarding house that night too. When I realized this morning that the schedule was rather free, I said it would be okay to just sleep at home tonight. Just now I received a text message that class tomorrow would start on 7.30 AM. Based on tradition I should switch and tell Mom that I want to return to the boarding house....

Just strange. As if there is always a reason for me to change plan. And it always happens at the last moment.

P.S.: I'll stay home tonight and go to boarding house tomorrow morning before going to campus. And that is final.

P.S.S.: Don't be surprised if within hours the decision is changed. :P

Heart amused
Body Girl's Room
Soul Trouble Maker - Trouble Maker

rainchild

to be a meaningful gesture

Entries tagged with home

The Comeback

Second of June.

Holiday and sickness.

Through the window...

Always hard to plan.