Entries tagged with student

Current Mood: frustrated
Current Location: My room~
Current Music: Smurf Village's theme song

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A day to breathe.

From what is supposed to be a week, lol.

Finally the national event my batch created in name of our faculty ended last night. I'm glad it ended, and I bet my friends who had more problems felt even happier that it ended. It was quite an exhausting week for me, running here and there taking care of many things, coming home late, too tired to do anything else even though the week was free from any academic activities. There were problems here and there... But all in all it was a fun experience. It's nice to be able to do something like that once in a while.

Even so the projects didn't end there. I have another national event I'm taking part in the next two weeks, and my batch still has another social project which will take place in the next two months, I suspect. That means we'll still be busy.

Oh, well. At least I managed to watch some drama and anime, although I made no progress in continuing my Japanese and little progress in scanlating.

Last night I was thinking to return to Wordpress. Not that I'm very unsatisfied with how Dreamwidth is, but I was bored and I didn't find a theme I really like to use. I decided to go with this one ('Belledona') and too lazy to convert or export all the content here to new Wordpress. There is no easy way, lol. So I guess I'll stick to using this place~ Haven't been very successful in blogging ever since I closed my first blog, lol.

It's already Sunday, geez. I'm sad, really. Haven't done anything yet... So I'm thinking about how I'll spend my last free Sunday evening. After going to church. Nyahaha.

Current Mood: crappy
Current Location: I no longer know.
Current Music: Rain

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Because 'the end' is 'the beginning of something new'.

I survived the world's doomsday. God loves me! /sarcasm

Anyway, been more than a month since my last post here. Very sporadic, eh? Here I was, promising to try hard to write regularly, but eventually it fell behind. Life's been busy, and the time I had used to stay online were channeled to games or anime or sleeping. Sounded like.. frustrated? Perhaps, a bit.

This year's Christmas and New Year is the first I celebrate without my core family. I'm stuck here because my semester is yet to end, but parents and sister are already at hometown. Around a week more I'll be free, but there's still a lot to go through to reach that point. Exams, mainly. On January 2nd, 2013. Look at the date, LOOK AT IT.

Honestly saying I wanted to celebrate New Year at a friend's house. But thanks to this annoying responsibility of having to go and see relatives on those days, I'll return to grandma's place soon enough. And studying there. And make a fool of myself for not being able to talk and have fun like others have. Because I barely talk to them, or maybe don't really know all these relatives that well.

I guess I'm just tired with life.

I'll probably write a bit more since I'm so bored and lazy. But two exams are around the corner as well, so...

P.S.: Belated Merry Christmas 2012!

Current Mood: frustrated
Current Location: Room. My room.
Current Music: Hitomi - Alone

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Where I (should) stand...

I don't know myself. This is one of probably the low moments of my life, when everything around me sucks, when I suck myself, and totally have no motivation of moving forward.

Mock exam tomorrow. I have just started to read things around 2 hours ago. Amazing.

I enjoy sleeping even more lately. Problems just go away when I do, so it makes me very happy. Aside from that music helps me to survive.

What's wrong with me... So without life lately. Spending hours working on unnecessary things and watching anime. I mean, hey, I'm already on my third year, soon to be assistant of those doctors. But I'm not prepared at all.

My choir club was planning some kind of workshop for the members tomorrow. Unfortunately I received news yesterday that there will be events all students must participate in. When we had already contacted the speakers and the members about the day. And there's also this singing event on Wednesday. How are we going to practice? Oh, my.

What have I been doing...

I really need the holiday this weekend (again) to clean my head and focus. FOCUS!

Current Mood: thoughtful
Current Location: Always here.
Current Music: EGOIST - Euterpe

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What makes me whole?

Music. Food. Family. Friends. And honorable mention to my busy academic and non-academic schedules and assignments. Really, even though they all could be annoying at times, they make me into who I am today.

Today I kind of wanted to write something again, after a long absence. Tomorrow is exam. What, reliving stress, you say? Probably. :P

Nothing much up with my life but the usual routine. Works and assignments are all around the air, but I'm fighting to give some time to go to MangaHelpers, to listen and hunt music, to watch anime, to read manga I've been following, to play, and last but not least to sleep. Sometimes the balance is off, but such is life.

This weekend, November 3rd-4th 2012, Lee Seung Gi -- one of my favorite Korean actors -- came for a fan meeting in Indonesia. I couldn't express how much I wish I could go but the ticket was rather expensive and exam was coming. I must be satisfied with photos and news only. It seemed so cool. Seung Gi is known as a warm, open, and friendly celebrity, loving his fans a lot. Come again to Indonesia, Seung Gi-oppa. Or I'll visit Korea and see you one day. <3

My love with anime is blossoming as usual. I have many series to check, but at this moment decided to stick with those currently airing ones only. Now downloading and watching Kara no Kyoukai when I can, though. It seems to be quite an interesting series, although the first episode was rather... heavy.

I'll try to remember to write some reviews of anime and drama I watched recently, like I did with Mirai Nikki and King2Hearts previously. It was rather fun.

For now, off I go to gather my good luck for tomorrow's exam. Until then! o/

Current Location: Always here.
Current Music: 4MEN ft. Bebe - Inform

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New month, new responsibilities...

Yeah, new month. Soon this year would end. Isn't it just crazy to see how fast time goes by? More importantly, it's scary. My life feels kind of... meh.

Well, let's see. What am I up to this month...

Exams are coming, this week and the next week too. So I'll probably write a bit more, since writing is all I can do to refresh the head. I don't dare to go to any forums or websites; too much of distraction, LOL~ I'm also preparing my thesis. Things finally got rolling, and now that my friends and I are in the mood for it, better solve it as quick as we can before strange things delaying us any further. So even less time online. Spare time I have is all given to catch up with my weekly anime. Oh, my.

I actually am thinking of getting myself in a Japanese course. Probably not a wise thing to do given my schedule, but still... I wish one day I can continue studying Japanese and German. I was thinking about this recently, and decided to go with Japan first since it's closer to my hobby so should be easier to learn.

I also have a friend who's planning to take a course like me too. When I asked her why she decided to do it now that we're so close to getting even busier, she said, "Because just once this time I want to do something I love."

You probably don't know how true that sentence is for her, and for me, strangely. As I think more of it, I can't help to agree with it.

Not to mention the preparation for a local event held by an organization I'm member of in the next two weeks. Running like a crazy ant all around, yes, that's me.

We'll see. For now, I need to survive day by day with various tasks to step on the exams.

Goodness.

Current Mood: drained
Current Location: Panic Room
Current Music: MADZ - The Light of a Million Mornings

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Coping up with life.

It has been such a long time since made a post here. Around three months, eh? Very cool.

I have been busy with university. That, and my motivation in keep writing for this journal kind of died out. Not sure if I'll ever get to that mood again but we'll see. As for now I have just managed to survive through two weeks of hell, and soon in few more days it will return I guess. Such is life. So many complications and troubles, trying to sort things out one by one, but it doesn't always work, gosh. I'll just do my best.

See you around soon.

Current Mood: cranky
Current Location: Inner Heart
Current Music: Silence. It is gold, right?

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Gone with the wind?

Kind of. ^^;

I haven't been updating this blog in ages. I just didn't have anything I think worth sharing here... I was also tired from school, so many things to do. With exams coming and many things to read so I didn't really have much time playing around as usual. It has been quite a pressure, so yeah... There is an exam tomorrow, and two next week, so I'm beaten up so badly, haha~

Things with 'that person' went more or less fine. I didn't think we would ever return to the way we were before. It went okay, but something is always missing... Or maybe I'm looking to the past way too much.

Aside from that... nothing much.

...I'll try to write more.

Current Mood: working
Current Location: Darkness
Current Music: Liszt - La Campanella

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Second of June.

June is already here. In fact, we have already reached the second of June of 2012. The year of end of the world. :P Bottom line is, time flies, right? It feels as if we have just celebrated New Year few days ago, now we are already halfway through this year. So scary.

So many things have happened lately. Quite a lot of stress from school, with so many things to read and work on. Especially now that rather silent weeks have passed and we once again enter the weeks of battle with exams. My online activity thus have been reduced quite a bit, and it will decrease even more in upcoming weeks, until around three weeks from now when current class end and new one starts. Mom and my sister returned to hometown few days ago, leaving me alone here. And I can only go home on late August. Such a long way to go.

I suppose I can say I am kind of stressed with another thing as well.

I just don't understand why. I suppose if we talk directly, I will finally find out... Yet I feel there is no urge to do so since the other party totally shows no interest at all in talking with me about anything. That is rather discouraging, hence I decided to back off slowly and eventually cut off the connection. Not that I am angry or anything... I just don't understand why, and I react to what I see in front of me. Who wants to live in discomfort anyway, right? If I am not needed, if it makes me feel discomfort, I may as well stand back and live my life alone. No offense at all.

Perhaps it sounds like I am disappointed? I guess so. Deep inside since we have been together for a while, we can sort things out properly, but turns out I was wrong. I had faith... and in one way or another I was 'betrayed'. Sometimes I think if I have done something wrong, something I am unaware of.

So when I was told that we were going to talk... I'm just curious now.

Enough with the gloomy post.

The coming of June also marks something else in my life, actually, something more positive and lovely. It marks six month of something special, which I didn't think would last this long actually. It started of as something fun, and eventually we enjoyed it. I can't wait to see where we will go to after this. <3

Staying positive is so hard to do, but I will do my best!

P.S.: I hope you like the secrecy! :DD

Current Location: Near Campus(!)
Current Music: Akiko Shikata - Aoiro Kandzume

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Holiday and sickness.

This weekend is kind of mixed. We had a long break thanks to the holiday for Christ's Ascension, from Thursday down to Sunday (which is today). I was supposed to spend a happy, lovely, and laid-back free time at home with Mom and Sis, playing games, enjoying TV programs, watching dramas and anime, fangirling like a crazy one...

I am not the one who was sick, if you worried a little. :P

Late at night, actually just around an hour after midnight, early in the beginning of Saturday, we received a call that Mom's mother (so my maternal grandmother) fell ill. Heart attack, it seemed. She was unconscious and brought immediately to hospital... None of her child was around to help, it was another family. Mom rushed over to her place, which is not at this city, Friday afternoon. She would return tomorrow night. Well, that left me with a task to look after Sis, although it was taken over completely by my aunt who used to take care of her before...

Now that sounds like I was back to being 'jobless', but it was boring since I had no one to talk to. :(

Problem solved a bit when I went to visit a friend's house to play couple of hours on Saturday afternoon. And by going back to boarding house today. ... Or no. Since I have classes tomorrow. Starts early, ends late. And seems like it's going to be boring.

"Ah, stress!"

Current Mood: nerdy
Current Location: Mega Bedroom
Current Music: Hartes ciel, melenas walasye.

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Between life and death!

As the title said. That is the reason for my lack of post for almost a month. :P

Not really, I guess...?

Last time I posted an entry here, it was after the first exam of last module, if I remember correctly. After that I went into crazy mode of studying. I tried to use my time as effective and efficient as possible, I tried to keep myself sane through all the crazy schedules... It ended up well, the exams week finished and I didn't have to redo anything. Still I had an exam to re-take last week, and I went back to studying. Not that I didn't have time at all to write, but I was getting lazy online, only playing games and downloading or watching K-drama, and chatting. Nothing much. Until today, which marks the beginning of a new class, I think it is a good time to restart everything again.

After taking a break and breathe free for around a week -- or few days cut by studying from that re-take exam -- I feel slightly more refreshed to start anew. Today's lectures while not as bad as I thought were not delivered well by the teachers that they got slightly boring. It's still the first day anyway so I won't let myself down.

Back to working on my writing, I guess. So many to write, deadline is Wednesday, and I'm full until late afternoon tomorrow. How sweet.

Current Mood: numb
Current Location: My tiny room
Current Music: Advertisements

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One down, another one to go!

Another exam is finally done today. That is the main reason of my lack of posts. I have been meaning to make one, always signed in and was always ready to make a post but I ended up not writing anything. x_x

The process of studying for this exam was rather... surprising. I expected the materials to be quite a lot, yet some weren't that much. I still even had the time to download some games and played them in between my rest time from studying, LOL~ Currently I'm playing mini games like Dancing Craze, Party Planner, and Hidden Object Crossword. Much fun between my studies.

Today the exam ended up quite good in my opinion. Mistakes here and there after checking it with my friends, but not so grave. Actually it depends on how the grading process is done. The exam was an integrated one between many fields, and if they decide to score it based on each field and decide on whether we have to re-take the exams based on the fields, then I'm as good as dead since I think I may fail one field. Otherwise, I should be okay. *sighs*

Well, time to prepare for the next exam. This one is A TON. I wonder how I'll survive it. Today I just don't feel like I have any strength left to study, geez. T_T

Current Mood: indescribable
Current Location: Where kidneys are God
Current Music: Kajiura Yuki - rainbow

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Life is never flat.

Well, pardon my non-posting period lately. Besides that I don't really have something to say, I'm busy as well. Working on various assignments, real life and online life, LOL~

Exams are coming and I barely have any time left. I think I will have to stop most my online activities soon to prepare for the exams, especially going to forums... That is just so addicting. Need to stop a bit. Perhaps I will spend more time writing here on the journal. Yay me!

Well, and tomorrow I'm going to spend the day after classes at my friend's birthday. So close to exam yet what am I doing..? LOL~ I need my fun!

Just wish me luck to stop myself from going to forums too much. T_T

Current Mood: sick
Current Location: Brink of boredom
Current Music: Silence.

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Sick and busy.

I hate flu. I hate being sick. I hate being busy.

And I hate how I couldn't do anything to save myself from it.

Lately I have been sick and busy. I truly hate it because this is so near Easter and I have jobs to do. In this condition it is just hard to do anything properly. My nose is completely blocked, my head hurts, and all I want to do it sleeping. T_T

I hate it even more since I have loads of anime and drama episodes to watch. :P

Oh, well. At least Easter is coming and I get a day free for extra rest this week. ...Or maybe not, considering how we'll have exams soon. Aaarrggh.

Current Mood: annoyed
Current Location: Room Sweet Room
Current Music: LYn - Back in Time

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What will happen to us?

This country is rather... strange.

Everyone is so hyped with the idea of raising the fuel price. So many people go on demonstrations on street, even going as far as destroying things. Demonstrations which should have been used to express our opinions and thoughts ended up as violent actions. Polices needed to stop them all. Among those people there are students as well; in this case they are university students. As much as they want to stop the raise for good and express that university students exist, I really can't understand why it has to be so.. destructive.

Now everyone has trouble going somewhere or doing something. We are scared the whole day because those people could come around and destroy things. Even more since my campus is one of strategic locations. There were reports of violent demonstrations near my campus tonight already.

How scary.

Just where are we going to? What will happen to us from now on?

Current Mood: pessimistic
Current Location: Inner heart
Current Music: Birds chirping outside

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Two years for nothing?

Time turns around just too fast.

I felt like it was only yesterday that I graduated from high school and was searching for university to continue my study at. At that time it was rather unclear what to do or where to go, so all the worries were focused on getting a university... I didn't really think of what would happen after that. Now here I am, in few months going to finish my fourth semester a.k.a second year in my major... and I feel like my head is empty. What do I know, really?

Seniors would say not to worry. The real study process would start in the fourth year since we would interact with patients directly.

It's just scary. As if you fall to to a familiar place, but you couldn't remember what or where or when, and if you think too long everything would be lost. Lives would be lost.

Life is harsh, gah.